... lets play pretend
that we live in a world
where you are
           breathing...

lets play a game,
where I can let go of this feeling
and open up my eyes
and you are there, and you're
     alive.

I do not know how to live this life
with out you by my side,
                   feeling,
                   living,
                   breathing,
           
    you've broke my heart
              my will,
           my stride

but let me try
to find that place
where
         possibilities
                            lie
so I can go on breathing
    or if not...
       so I can
              die.

for I cannot deny
the gaping hole,
          my heart ripped wide
       where you, my love,

 (with all your breath,
     your voice
     your touch
         your scent...
                           your death)

where you,
          my love,
                         reside.

and I can pretend
    that I will go on living
                        in a world
              where you are breathing,
     in my world
        and in my heart,
where you,
          my love,
                         reside.